11 Aug 2016 | Staying over in Auckland airport with peace and love. X

While I was standing on the street like this, a middle-age guy stopped jogging, stood in front of me and stared at me for a while then laughed out with saying ''such a weak asian girl'' to me. I told him that I'm strong enough to carry them all the way. It happened quite a few times these days when I walked on the street like this, probably it's rare for them to see these kind of things.

I wouldn't say it's a descrimation or a prejudice even an insult.(Of course I wouldn't say it's an ignorance as well otherwise it'd be too judgmental;)) But I felt somehow offended by the attitude they showed to me. It's sort of like when someone asks you to do something "like a girl" but what it actually means or what people try to imply or push your thoughts into a certain way.

I shared my experiences and thoughts about racism with a friend of mine and I told him that I still feel blessed by travelling around with love and see it through different versions I've never thought of(despite it makes me more cynical recently, I'm happy with learning more about my world because I'll never be satisfied if I know I can suck more up). 

He wrote me such the most beautiful words I've never seen in my life and I really hope that one day I can write something like that in English because we shouldn't be divided just because of different languages(or colours).

"Love, you gotta think, if people want to be racist or be unfair with you - or anyone else - often it's because they speak their values and beliefs from a stance of ignorance.

I'm not saying it's right, but it's how they've been raised..

And despite how racism is plain and simply: ugly - we should be the ones to educate to the best of our abilities those others who don't understand that the colour of our skin doesn't make a difference to the person inside..

We all have a heart, two eyes, hands, legs, etc... for us to be divided because we don't speak the same language or hold different values is absurd. How would they like it? Always hold your head high! What you've done and continue to do by being approachable and open to people speaks volumes, so never ever lose that. When people try to stand on our hearts with their negativity; sometimes we have to take a moment to empathise, perhaps to realise that these people are hurting inside themselves......Imagine a dog that's been treated like shit by a previous owner... at first it'll try to bite anyone that tries niceness. We only perceive the angry dog, but we don't always realise that these experiences earlier in life have shaped the present." That's what he told and taught me.

I'm glad that I can make a difference and at least I can develop a critical thinking instead of being judgmental because I hate it so much. "Take the good with the bad. They depend upon each other." Always hold my head high and believe that I can be better. There are so many amazing people outside of our small world and if you'd like to step out, you might be one of them!!

背著兩年行囊踏上哈比人的遠征，澳洲→紐西蘭→澳洲→
Auckland的最後一晚，前往機場的路上撞見不友善的中年大叔、長椅上那位一期一會的美國女孩，四個小時不間斷的話匣子、同睡機場共進早餐、雪梨海關口的道別...在戲劇般又寫實的故事中劃下句點。

一路上聽過無數次：「好羨慕你能夠放下一切去流浪，不必在乎工作、金錢、現實...。」回想起來，心情總是複雜。

你問：「為什麼要出走、為什麼要不斷地挑戰自己？」
我說：「答案千百種，申論題的考官與應考者都是自己。
就像富有男孩的選擇，不是是非題，沒有「對」或「錯」，能不能，都只是 選擇 。

確定的是，曾經從朋友那裡得到勇氣而出走的我，如今可以讓人因此被鼓舞被正面影響，依舊覺得老天是眷顧我的。這段日子感受到的世界，回憶起來就是bittersweet。探索自我與證明的方式每個人不同，而我選擇的是冒險的旅行。透過自己的眼睛看見的風景最讓我感動，嚐到的教訓與經驗會慢慢結成深刻的果實，因為擔心害怕恐懼局限了自己，不可惜嗎？